2026 05 10
bless my sweet boyfriend for staying with me an extra night to help me feel better. there have been moments of beauty despite the circumstances, and he looks after me so sweetly. last night he read my mind (!) that i wanted yellow curry from my favorite thai restaurant for dinner; i was opening the food delivery app to order it when he called me and asked if i would like him to pick up some yellow curry on his way back to my place. i can't believe our connection sometimes! i called in the order & it was ready when he arrived, at just the right time. it was so nourishing. and tonight he cooked us a lovely dinner which we ate together in my living room while the sun set. it was all silent, just the two of us. then i realized the bats were flowing by outside my window (i live in an area with a large urban bat colony). so i sat on my window bench and enjoyed my dinner and watched the bats go streaming by in big black ribbons across the sky. he sat on the couch across the room, and it was so gratifying just to be there with each other in a moment of beauty and peace. it's nice to be so comfortable with someone in that way. i hope he knows how much i appreciate him.
meanwhile he has been biking all around town enjoying the nice weather, and crafting his personal website at night. i'm so proud of him; his website looks so good. seeing all his accomplishments makes me feel so lucky to be in his life, and to have the attention of such a captivating figure.
gah, my writing gets so simplistic when i'm ill. brain fog is such a real thing. i also make dumb mistakes when i'm sick, like throwing away food that is still good. i can't wait to be better again so i can think my thoughts PROPERLY.
well, i'll feel better soon, i'm sure. my precious cats have been keeping me company, and i revamped my mineral display cabinet, and these have been bringing me much joy ! hopefully i will be feeling better soon ~
2026 05 09
blehh i am sick. it's funny, i don't get sick very often, but it seems the intervals between illnesses for me are just such that as soon as i have stopped appreciating my good health, i get a little sicky. it's almost like a perfectly timed reminder, every time, to not take my good health for granted. i had just been healthy for long enough that i had stopped thinking, "man, it's so great to be able to breathe through my nose." and that's when i fell ill !
well, i'm trying to make the best of it. one nice thing about being sick is that i have plenty of time to go through all the pictures of the wonderful trip to POLAND I took a few weeks ago with my wonderful POLISH-AMERICAN BOYFRIEND who i love so much. we had such a wonderful time; i will never forget that trip. i feel so lucky & special to have this man in my life. he treats me so kindly and shows me such beautiful things, and traveling with him is such a joy. he is such an incredible person; such intensity and passion about everything. it was such a blessing to see poland by his side. we ate some amazing food, including some delicious vegan georgian cuisine and a tomatoey-egg dish called "shakshuka," which besides being fun to say is also really good, and we even experienced some polish nightlife with my bf's friends! it was such a fun time. i will post some photos here:
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so i guess it's good to appreciate what you have while you have it. looking back on fun and healthy times is a nice motivator for me to cherish my health and good memories. i am so grateful to be alive & in love ~ !
2026 04 01
i am not glad to live in a world with drones that can kill people. i am not glad to live in a world with AI-generated pornography of unconsenting women. i am not glad to live in a world with loosening environmental regulations in the midst of a climate crisis. i am not glad to live in a world with forced labor, and reeducation camps, and a constant threat of nuclear war. i am not glad to live in a divided world; i am not glad to feel like a healthy cell in a sick organism.
but i am glad to live in a world with computers and video calls. i am glad to live in a world with deep-sea exploration and dairy alternatives. i am glad to live in a world that is more connected to itself than ever. i am glad to live in a world where it's still possible to lay in the grass and have a picnic, or make some art, or laugh with friends. slowly we are waking up to the opportunities still left in this world, and the brand-new ones we can create. slowly the organism is healing. the future is alive and healthy, and it's all around us, it's within us.
2026 03 26
hello :) i have been meaning to make something like a "mini-blog" for a while now, and i am so glad to have finally done so ~
i enjoy making long-form posts on my main blog, but sometimes i put too much pressure on myself to make really impressive and exhaustive posts on there, so i think it will be nice to have a low-stakes way to express myself here.
i plan to post personal updates and random little photos from my life. i will think of it like a virtual notebook where i post snippets and musings so i can come back to them later. maybe you will find some enjoyment in my thoughts as well.
i dearly appreciate you, reader !
i wish you blessings and inspiration.